life..

many things happened today and it got me really thinking.. have i lead my life the way i want it to be.. i feel that sometimes i might be a bit too selfish and think of myself when i shouldn't.. well i hope that this will change from now on.. give me time..

firstly i would sincerly like to apologise to someone whom i have disappointed today.. i'm really sorry abt what i did and i know i shld not have done it.. i should have rejected the offer and maybe even encouraged my fren not to do it but i didn't which was really stupid.. i really hope you'll forgive me for what i did.. i can't bear to lose u.. u're one of the best thing that hapeend to me in the past 18 yrs of my life and i dont want it to end.. and i know sometimes i may say or do the wrong things but that is cause i just forget to think b4 i speak or do.. don't take it too seriously ya if i say something worng.. we'll work it out together ya.. i'll be here for u...

anyway i started thinking.. why should i do this to myself.. why should i continuing doing what is bad.. i should turn over a new leaf and do what's right.. i should try to help myself instead of hoping something to happen.. i mean i recently just turned 18 and i think i should also act more maturely.. i shouldn't be too playful

so i like made myself a promise or like a resolution.. i have decided to start studying hard for my future and maybe even ours.. i shouldn' waste life by just slacking around.. study hard and go far in life.. get a good job so i can provide myself and my significant other a happy life.. i also decided to read more books as i think maybe why not it could help better my english and it could be something different.. could help me in my thinking too.. i should also help more with my fam like start heping my mum wash the dishes and also start talking even more nicely to her..

my parents work hard to give me a happy life and i think i should try to repay them by too making their life easier and not let their hard work go to waste.. i shall make them proud of me..

i shall stop cursing so much although i think i'll still curse and swear once in awhile.. but i think that little bit wont hurt ya.. and to those frens whom i have been mean too like maybe disturbing u a bit too much i really apologise too.. i dont think u deserve something lidat and i really do appreciate all of u guys being in my life and making me happy..

i should start cutting down on the slacking and start doing more meaningful stuff.. i could use some help from all u frens out dere and from u too babe.. although i know u already have been helping me in ways like getting me thinking abt my life.. yea it was what happened today how i made u disappointed that got me thinking.. and in a way i have to thank u for that..

well seldom i post something like this but oh well.. i just feel like i have to.. well too all those ppl in my life i really thank u guys for being here.. i dunno what else to say but thank u.. and to you babe.. thanks for listening to my problems so late at night.. and well i do hope ur problems will end too.. i'll be by ur side all the way ya.. hugs..

frens out dere.. if i did something bad to u or something that i shouldn;t just tell me straight to the face ya.. its alright as i need feedback on my behaviour so that i can change for the better..

well thats like about all for today.. think its high time i get to bed now.. so ciao..

ministry of sound

on of the freaking best birthday celebration a guy will ever get la.. thanks so freaking must for making it happen girl.. its all cause of u..i could never ask for anything more from u.. u r just so wonderful.. thank you for just being u.. i'll miss ya lots.. cant wait to see ya again soon la.. man its gonna be tough spending so much time apart.. but u know i'll miss ya badly.. i know u'll miss me to.. but that will just make all the time we meet ever so much more special and meaningful...

yes u know who u are.. dont act blur ya.. =D.. hugs

blog blog blog..

blog blog blog.. blog blog blog.. so like just got accepted to MDIS MASS COMMUNICATIONS.. hope it will be gr8.. and diploma in 8 mths.. cool man.. haha.. well.. sat i'll be out and monday and tuesday too for my birthday celebration.. haha.. cant wait for these 3 days man.. wahaha... sun going for mantiz bbq at keongs house.. gonna see the peeps again.. miss them all.. can talk cock sing song lo..haha..ok like thats abt it to blog abt la ya.. havent talked to alot of ppl in a long time man.. say mei ying, cassandra, nicky.. peeps like them.. gotta catch up with them soon.. cheryl ur name is not here cause i just talked to u la.. ahha.. well thats abt it la ar.. till another time..

island life.. love it..

back and burnt.. i'm all red and stuff.. ytd it din feel that bad but when i woke up today and scratched my back.. ouch..

anyway.. ytd had to see the docs b4 going down.. doc said i have mild bronchitis.. hmm but i'm getting better thank god.. later dad fetched me down to harbour front to meet gen and her freshies cause like everyone else went liao.. i tot we would be late but there were people also reaching ard the same time.. a few antor ppl and chapalang groups.. haha..

it started to rain when we got there but i'm not gonna let some rain spoil the fun.. so i took my medicine and just rushed off.. haha.. played captain's ball and den i remembered the doc saying i cannot exert myself.. and now i know why.. so iwent to the water to take a dip.. and they started throwing almost every one they could see in.. and i helped out but i started to get tired again.. oh well..

played ard in the water abit den went to get nz ice cream.. hokey pokey and toffee caramel cup.. yes u know who u are.. =P.. it was nice though the walk although the sun was pretty hot..

came back and played pass the frisbee.. poor cy got trashed. haha.. the frisbee was threw pass him 7 times and he did not see it.. oh wells... haha.. thats part of the game..haha..

after that we took a bathe and den went to ps for dinner.. we all tok away food and went to the big space between dhoby ghaut mrt and ps there to eat.. there is like the place after an outing at sentosa..haha..some ppl left early while others left late.. i was the left late one.. haha.. went to selegie to eat chin chow and tau huay with niven, han, samantha and soon poh den we went back to dhoby ghaut.. took a train back and den after a nice bath i crashed into my bed and slpet till ah peng woke me up.. haha.. but oh wells.. i needed to take my medicine anyway.. so ya.. till den..

i'll still go back tp to visit everyone.. =D.. take care peeps.. ciao..

camp.

ok i'll keep this short and simple.. cause honestly if i were to type down everything that happened during fow/foc, i could compile a 1000 page novel.. so ya..

10/4-12/4 had fow.. morning freshies came.. we had ice breakers.. abit messy but funy.. slowly the ice started to melt abit.. den we had tampines games which was fun.. it did bond the freshies together..evening they went back and the gl's stayed on.. they came back the next day and had school wide games.. could tell this time they were much crazier..i dont think i can name names la cause if i did i would have to put down all 30 plus names.. haha.. i was with manney... crazy buch.. haha.. fun too.. we had school wide games... they were cheering and they were coming up with their own cheers...haha.. performance night was interesting seeing all the performances by the empires.. haha.. and after that we had a 15mins jam and hop.. long eh.. wow..haha..last day was carnival games which means wet wet wet.. haha.. now that was a blast.. we all got freaking wet and i know it sounds wrong la.. haha.. but oh well.. and after that final clash.. my god i tell u mantiz freshies for fow are just crazy la.. tell them chiong they chiong.. and its the girls too ok.. and we took down 2 empires which was the most kills.. sadly in the end we only got second but we lost to the first by 0.5 points.. so it was close enough..

3/4-15/4 we had foc.. the usual morning registration.. this time it was more organized la.. and we broke the ice better with better games.. and again after that we had tampines games.. still had a crazy buch..slightly quiet first day.. haha.. second day was school wide games.. guess what.. we got wet too.. why cause of the super freaking heavy rain which was super freaking heavy.. no shld be fucking heavy..it was crazy man.. but our freshies did still perform well.. sadly we got last for the first 2 days.. performance night was a blast.. all the even crazier performances by the freshies and the super lame performance by the gls..haha.. even main comm performed,.. jam and hop this time was not so fun.. soft and cannot hear music that well and it was a short one la.. like what the hell right..haha...ohwell..last day again was water games and again we all did get fuckign wet especially me cause they were one person short of an even number and guess who they chose to play with them.. haha.. and it also seems like the games got wetter... haha... after that was huntgry.. which i tell u is freaking like siao man.. the whole mantiz just chiong to get the points... did all the crazy stuff and i mean crazy... and after tthat final clash.. there was a special group in this one called the g-squad.. all the graduating ppl played.. immortals and can only take out sub com.. and we did.. haha.. we killed the sub coms..haha.. after that haha we suicide.. haha.. oh well.. it was fun.. mantiz still had alot of people left so like left 4 or 3 empires we jsut split into 2 and just take each side out la.. we took out spydra and forced centis to suicide... haha.. oh well..and guess what.. we took home best empire.. last to first.. power man.. after that there was just this crying fest.. bascially almost everyone was breaking down into tears including me.. literally broke down..oh well... it was fun.. went to cpf after that and fell asleep..haha.. i just slept on the floor with niven.. and den had to leave early cause had to do something impt.. =D..

well this is already a freaking log post.. have fun reading.. heh heh..

dont ask me i dunno what else to post so that will be it la ya.. ciao..

work work work..

second day of work and my legs are really killing me.. workinf at suntec for IDEM 2006 which is some dental exhibition.. boring.. have todo surveys for the organizers..boring and some ppl are just not helpful one la..

start frm 9 to 7.. long la and its really tiring on the legs.. ur legs can go numb one la.. haha... nothing really to blog abt yet.. tml is the last day and i cant wait for monday when it is the start of fow/foc and i dont want it to end.. but sadly it has too..

currently in a slightly huge debt.. hope this pay can clear most of it eeek.. well thats abt it.. t-shirt and other stuff alomost done for fow/foc and i wanna see the tee design.. haha.. i think i'll blog again on wed and on sun.. haha..

dnd..

ok like dnd just over.. had a wonderful time preparing and going for it.. marvelous..

well the day before went to the costume shop at aliwal st with han, flan and jodin.. was looking for my costume.. went dere and i tell u the shop is huge man.. super big with all kinds of costumes, seriously all kinds.. so ya i got handed the grim reaper's costume first but den i started to look ard and den saw the coat machiam trench coat.. huge.. den took this hat and it made me look like one of the evil char from kungfu hustle.. haha.. pretty lame la but cool.. so walked ard and saw this army officer cap so tired it on and guess what, i looked like vega or m.bison from street fighter.. han was a chinese vamp, jpdin a samurai and flan well some victorian guy.. me mr street fighter.. haha..

went to my cousin shop for a short while to just drop by and say hi.. he was having lessons so kinda difficult.. haha.. and after that headed down to pp with han and flan.. dropped jodin home along the way.. we were trying to find our black lipstick but well to no avail..

dnd morn we went down to tamp me and han to look for the lipstick.. went everywhere and bough eye liner instead to use as a subsitute.. met meiying, biondi and nic at macs later and den bought my green contacts..

went back home and started the make up.. no one to help us so everything we did ourself.. han's frist attempt was a faliure but second one was a success.. i have to thank nic for helping me to come up with my face design and helping me run another errand along the way.. first time tried my contacts.. at first was like bad but 5 mins later my eyes look gr8 man.. ha..

my dad bbrought me and han down to pan pac for dnd.. went dere and saw so many faces.. every one looked so cool.. with all their costume and makeup.. haha.. dnd started abit late but yea.. sat at table 10.. many things happened during dnd.. i got nominated for best costume but din win.. alan and yasin won.. lucky peeps.. haha.. is had prom king and won a lucky draw.. and guess what.. he has two watches now.. basket.. wasted i did not win the psp, ipod vid, xbox 360 or the moto razr v3.. oh well..

went to mos after that but removed my make up.. just wore the coat.. haha.. danced so much.. so fun.. stayed till 4 plus and left for mac to buy supper.. went to angel's house to collect contact lense casing and solution.. i really must thank angel for that and my breakfast and taxi fare..thanks so much angel.. hugs..

well got home and ate and bathe and slept..

returned my costume today went to suntec to collect free photo.. along the way met ting for awhile and arcade for ahort while.. had subway and went home.. haha.. simple day..but fun nontheless thanks to han and cy..i want carl's jr..

well wont be doing much on fri so ya see what happens den..

who ever has pics with me inside kindly send them to me kays.. really really appreciate it ya..thx..

i think i plan to wear coloured contacts for fun now.. so fun.. ha.. oh well..till another time..

'do u feel the same way too?'

i wonder...

sometimes i feel like i blog absolute crap.. i read other people's blog and see what they have to blog about, den i get back to mine and read it.. sigh.. well maybe i guess its just me.. nothing really serious to blog abt.. hmm. i think i'm just like not cut out for blogging in the first place..

well here is some useless stuff.. sat morn and i was in brandon's lorry and heading down to attitude bikes (ram's shop) to pick up the trials stuff and we were at new upper changi road.. i was looking up in the sky case i saw mars and jupiter i think and they were like super freaking bright.. we were in a clearing and i was looking when i saw this star.. at first i tot i was a normal star.. but as i looked closer it was moving so second thing that came to my mind was plane right but this one was differnt.. dere was no blinking light and it was just like a bight white dot just going across the sky.. it could not be a shotting star too cause a shooting star would just streak across the sky in like what a second so like i was wondering what it was... and den i struk me.. must be the international space station(ISS).. i was surprised la but delighted cause i alwasy wanted to see it.. sadly i did not have my tripod and i was on the lorry if not i would happily snap pictures of it liao.. cause i had my camera with me.. what a wasted.. unexpected but plesent surprise.. hope to see it again soon..

well basically past few days my eyes are hurting and i have been pretty damn shagged cause of the activities i had since fri.. hope to get some proper rest soon..

this wed is dnd and i'm going to get my costume later i hope.. cant wait.. wonder what it will be like .. wonder what costume i'm gonna get too.. hmm.. well i think its time i headed to bed b4 i get restless in the morn again..

'is this feeling mutual, or am i just dreaming?...'

dnd blues

low budget..

dunno what to get..

need to go costume shopping..

lucky mon going..

excited for dnd.. not excited for getting the clothes cause gotta part with my cash.. ha..

dnd shopping

dnd shopping!

must find something to suit his budget...

are you excited?!

*Pris