life..

many things happened today and it got me really thinking.. have i lead my life the way i want it to be.. i feel that sometimes i might be a bit too selfish and think of myself when i shouldn't.. well i hope that this will change from now on.. give me time..

firstly i would sincerly like to apologise to someone whom i have disappointed today.. i'm really sorry abt what i did and i know i shld not have done it.. i should have rejected the offer and maybe even encouraged my fren not to do it but i didn't which was really stupid.. i really hope you'll forgive me for what i did.. i can't bear to lose u.. u're one of the best thing that hapeend to me in the past 18 yrs of my life and i dont want it to end.. and i know sometimes i may say or do the wrong things but that is cause i just forget to think b4 i speak or do.. don't take it too seriously ya if i say something worng.. we'll work it out together ya.. i'll be here for u...

anyway i started thinking.. why should i do this to myself.. why should i continuing doing what is bad.. i should turn over a new leaf and do what's right.. i should try to help myself instead of hoping something to happen.. i mean i recently just turned 18 and i think i should also act more maturely.. i shouldn't be too playful

so i like made myself a promise or like a resolution.. i have decided to start studying hard for my future and maybe even ours.. i shouldn' waste life by just slacking around.. study hard and go far in life.. get a good job so i can provide myself and my significant other a happy life.. i also decided to read more books as i think maybe why not it could help better my english and it could be something different.. could help me in my thinking too.. i should also help more with my fam like start heping my mum wash the dishes and also start talking even more nicely to her..

my parents work hard to give me a happy life and i think i should try to repay them by too making their life easier and not let their hard work go to waste.. i shall make them proud of me..

i shall stop cursing so much although i think i'll still curse and swear once in awhile.. but i think that little bit wont hurt ya.. and to those frens whom i have been mean too like maybe disturbing u a bit too much i really apologise too.. i dont think u deserve something lidat and i really do appreciate all of u guys being in my life and making me happy..

i should start cutting down on the slacking and start doing more meaningful stuff.. i could use some help from all u frens out dere and from u too babe.. although i know u already have been helping me in ways like getting me thinking abt my life.. yea it was what happened today how i made u disappointed that got me thinking.. and in a way i have to thank u for that..

well seldom i post something like this but oh well.. i just feel like i have to.. well too all those ppl in my life i really thank u guys for being here.. i dunno what else to say but thank u.. and to you babe.. thanks for listening to my problems so late at night.. and well i do hope ur problems will end too.. i'll be by ur side all the way ya.. hugs..

frens out dere.. if i did something bad to u or something that i shouldn;t just tell me straight to the face ya.. its alright as i need feedback on my behaviour so that i can change for the better..

well thats like about all for today.. think its high time i get to bed now.. so ciao..